what's wrong with me?

What's wrong with me? Why can't I just get on with life? Why is no-one else like me?

Why am I so weird? Why does nothing ever work out for me? Where do I belong?

Why can't I be like everyone else? Why can't I fit myself into the life other people have?

These are the questions I had been asking myself since I was about 11 years old. I searched for a psychological diagnosis as I thought that would be the answer. Then maybe I could get help or at least they could lock me away so I didn't disturb other people any more.
I thought that this was my lot in life: dysfunctional, destructive, depressive. This was fundamentally who I was. I had to learn to live with it as best I could. I needed to learn to cope. It didn't even cross my mind that I could change or that there could be another way to live so I didn't look for one.

Luckily one found me.

I began my own personal 'road to recovery' in 2006 and I'm almost unrecognisably different whilst remaining somehow just the same. It's a process, peeling a layer back each time reveals a new challenge to face. Nothing shows up that I'm not ready to deal with. AND even better it didn't take much time at all to get to a place where my life functioned and I could tip the balance in favour of experiencing joy more frequently than pain.

If you'd like to find out how coaching could be the start of a new chapter in your life please contact me I can't wait to hear from you!

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